My mind has always be fairly neurotic, but it feels like I have had no escape for a month now. Going through a breakup is hard, but then there is all the after-math. And I've been confused the whole time.
You ever feel like nothing seems to be going your way? You are loosing things, you are getting easily pissed off- and doing the same to others. You have a serious lack of funds, and you generally seem overly tired, bewildered, and too sad for your own good?
I'm ont one to easily get depressed so I need to take steps towards not feeling this way. I deserve better from myself and from others.
Step 1. Find a hobbie. This will include playing more guitar/writing more songs. And dodegball games. I would like to also invest in an electric bike as my asthma wont let me go up hill, but if I can turn it on when I am going up hill that would be amazing. Will keep the interweb posted on whether that actually happens.
which brings me to step 2: keep loosing weight/getting in shape/making healthier decisions.
Step 3: get the Fuck over it.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
What Love is not
Contrary to popular music today, love is not war.
You have to fight for it, but it is NOT war; it is the feeling you get when the war is over. You feel happy, safe, and excited for your world to change for the better.
Too many people spend their days looking for the over-the-top, dramatic, scary and intense kind of love that doesn't always exist, and definitly doesn't last.
I think I am too boring to love for my generation at the age we are now. But I have faith that more people will grow up and realize that pop culture is not exactly an accurate portrait of what good love is.
You have to fight for it, but it is NOT war; it is the feeling you get when the war is over. You feel happy, safe, and excited for your world to change for the better.
Too many people spend their days looking for the over-the-top, dramatic, scary and intense kind of love that doesn't always exist, and definitly doesn't last.
I think I am too boring to love for my generation at the age we are now. But I have faith that more people will grow up and realize that pop culture is not exactly an accurate portrait of what good love is.
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Cut-off
I've wondered what the point is of maintaining friendships with people who basically cut you off for a period of time. If someone talks to me only when they desire a friend, or need something, why should my friendship be available?
It's a two-way street people.
Also, don't come into my life to tell me what I'm doing wrong or have been doing wrong when you havent been around for any of it.
On that note, when I say something hard to hear or I make a request that you don't like; or maybe request that you return a favour- respond. Do NOT choose to ignore it and wait until the next time you hear from me about something unrelated before you talk to me again.
Basically, I will try with people long past when I should stop. However, I will not stick around forever and at some point people have to realize I am worth having in their lives or face the plain old truth- we are no longer friends. While I may still care about you, I will not care to endure the trials and tribulations of having a one-sided friendship. Thank you very much.
It's a two-way street people.
Also, don't come into my life to tell me what I'm doing wrong or have been doing wrong when you havent been around for any of it.
On that note, when I say something hard to hear or I make a request that you don't like; or maybe request that you return a favour- respond. Do NOT choose to ignore it and wait until the next time you hear from me about something unrelated before you talk to me again.
Basically, I will try with people long past when I should stop. However, I will not stick around forever and at some point people have to realize I am worth having in their lives or face the plain old truth- we are no longer friends. While I may still care about you, I will not care to endure the trials and tribulations of having a one-sided friendship. Thank you very much.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Blah
How do you stop missing someone that you could very well see, but would only miss more if you did?
Selective amnesia is the only solution I can come up with. I've understood ways to help yourself get over someone for a very long time; but I can't figure out how to stop missing the best friends part.
It doesn't help that the love part is still there.
Selective amnesia is the only solution I can come up with. I've understood ways to help yourself get over someone for a very long time; but I can't figure out how to stop missing the best friends part.
It doesn't help that the love part is still there.
Friday, January 28, 2011
New website!
Inspired by the idea of having a place to go to for Nova scotia weddings on a budget novascotiaonestopweddingshop.com
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Megan Rose Photography
So, currently I have a portfolio through deviantart.com (http://mmacdonald.daportfolio.com/) which showcases my photography but I would like to venture out and create my own website. I want to get back into graphic design as well.
I have a couple more weddings coming up this summer which will give me a real background to start promoting myself and I already have business cards. Granted, they have my devianart website on them but I can always add my new one to the back, or link to my new one from deviantart (I think).
There is a company called ZAGG that sells skins for phones and computers etc...and I would like to have a section on my website that allows users to use my images for free on their skins (not typically of other people as I don't want to get into that territory where rights to comission etc...would have to be considered)but of their own wedding photos, animals, cities etc... as long as they use the links on my website to do so.
I'll keep updating how things go.
The company is bellow for anyone interested.
I have a couple more weddings coming up this summer which will give me a real background to start promoting myself and I already have business cards. Granted, they have my devianart website on them but I can always add my new one to the back, or link to my new one from deviantart (I think).
There is a company called ZAGG that sells skins for phones and computers etc...and I would like to have a section on my website that allows users to use my images for free on their skins (not typically of other people as I don't want to get into that territory where rights to comission etc...would have to be considered)but of their own wedding photos, animals, cities etc... as long as they use the links on my website to do so.
I'll keep updating how things go.
The company is bellow for anyone interested.
Sunday, December 12, 2010
The Sympathy Face
If you've ever had a friend who was fairly demanding of attention you have likely used the sympathy face. Because, I find the ones you notice being attention seekers (even though most of us are in other ways) are the ones who aim to attract attention in the form of sympathy.
I am an empathetic person, I like to think. I always end up listening to the traumatic stories of their childhood and participate in the ego-boosting remarks like “don’t be silly, you have something to offer; you’re life is good and will only get better” etc...etc...But eventually, I realize that this particular brand of person is actually not feeling bad about themselves or their lives at all; they just want YOU to feel bad.
If you have sympathy for them, it means you care and that they can count on you to be on their side even when they are wrong (because you, of all people, should know that they need someone in their corner).
You do not come across these people every day and sometimes you just get people who arrive in this phase but eventually get out. Sometimes, it requires that you no longer buy into it. You no longer feed their ideas about what your relationship should be and the best way they know how to get attention.
The annoying thing though is I never spot these people right away, it always takes a lot of sympathy attempts and eventually the realization that they have over-exaggerated stories and feelings.
Man o man that reminds me of the drama queens in relationships. You know, the ones that feel like their partner isn’t passionate about being with them and loving them unless they are fighting. They seek to make the other person feel bad purely to get them to argue with them. At least the spiders make their intentions perfectly clear (though some people still ignore them…for some strange inexplicable reason).
What kind of people are these?! Seriously guys, if you EVER notice that you do stuff like this then I beg of you to seek emotional help- wherever that may come from. DO NOT just seek out new people that haven’t figured you out yet. This is unhealthy. The truth is you should not need validation from your friends, significant others, or strangers. These expectations are ridiculous and unfair. You, and especially they, deserve more.
I am an empathetic person, I like to think. I always end up listening to the traumatic stories of their childhood and participate in the ego-boosting remarks like “don’t be silly, you have something to offer; you’re life is good and will only get better” etc...etc...But eventually, I realize that this particular brand of person is actually not feeling bad about themselves or their lives at all; they just want YOU to feel bad.
If you have sympathy for them, it means you care and that they can count on you to be on their side even when they are wrong (because you, of all people, should know that they need someone in their corner).
You do not come across these people every day and sometimes you just get people who arrive in this phase but eventually get out. Sometimes, it requires that you no longer buy into it. You no longer feed their ideas about what your relationship should be and the best way they know how to get attention.
The annoying thing though is I never spot these people right away, it always takes a lot of sympathy attempts and eventually the realization that they have over-exaggerated stories and feelings.
Man o man that reminds me of the drama queens in relationships. You know, the ones that feel like their partner isn’t passionate about being with them and loving them unless they are fighting. They seek to make the other person feel bad purely to get them to argue with them. At least the spiders make their intentions perfectly clear (though some people still ignore them…for some strange inexplicable reason).
What kind of people are these?! Seriously guys, if you EVER notice that you do stuff like this then I beg of you to seek emotional help- wherever that may come from. DO NOT just seek out new people that haven’t figured you out yet. This is unhealthy. The truth is you should not need validation from your friends, significant others, or strangers. These expectations are ridiculous and unfair. You, and especially they, deserve more.
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